imjustcrazy

from me to you, sincerely

2010-06-08T14:35:00.002+08:00

its clear,
the picture i see in front of me.
i see the front you put up
but i can see you're cracking on the inside.
you're tired,
its obvious.
you may think i'm rubbing it in your face,
but i'm not cause i've long known that it would come to this.
the fire in the moment of fury,
seems to have died and now you're left with a shell.
the smile is gone, no hope in your eyes.
should i even ask why?
the gift given unto us
was never to be selfishly snatched away.
remember this even if you must forget all else.
memories; you choose the way you want them to remain.
xoxo
me.
ps: colouralldayspurple;liveglamorously.

regrets.

2010-05-29T14:52:00.004+08:00

maybe its too late.
maybe not.
but don't blame me for not trying.
you've changed.yes you have.
i miss the girl who used to be so forgiving.
now you sound like some debt collector...
i wish i had the courage to say this to your face
but i can't.
i'm so sorry..
last time it was just you and me,
now its you me and many other people.
is it too late to wish for the old you.
i guess i'll never know until i try, so i'm wishing now..
i wish for the girl who made all the lame jokes
i iwsh for the girl who never judged
i wish for the girl who keeps no secrets
i wish for the girl who knew what was on my mind
i just wish that she would come back soon
amen.

2010-05-15T13:51:00.003+08:00

if i could tell you in a word how i felt
i would.
if i could write it out to you
i would.
if i could whisper it so that you may know
i would.
but there is no word to describe this
so i can't say
you have turned away, your eyes blinded
so i can't write
your ears have become accustomed to the loud noises
so i can't whisper

heartfelt words, all these tears.
i'm tired.
i would carve out every single happy memory of you
onto my heart.
i don't want to forget.
maybe i just need to escape from reality.
but i'll keep the faith.
if i could.

who cares?

2010-04-14T22:19:00.002+08:00

hahahaha something just strikes me.
like really outta the blue.
i think you really got privacy infringement issues.
who's blog is this? mine(: not yours.
so keep your opinions to yourself.
keep them all to yourself cause i don't give two hoots abt what you think abt me.
besides what's the point of telling me right?
unless you want an outcome.
you want me to change? dream on.
you want to get me down. try harder yea?
i love who i am & if you can't accept it
i can't do anything abt it can i?
life rocks the way it is now & for the last time
i have no intention of changing who i am.
save your comments, thoughts opinions.
i don't need them(:
xoxo
rekha
ps: if you think i dislike you you're wrong,
i just dislike the person you're trying so hard to potray yourself as
& i already know who you are so give up the chase yea? (:

slack.

2010-04-13T21:58:00.002+08:00

yellow (:
its been raining the whole afternoon.
i L-O-V-E it!
its so refreshing.
its been so hot and sunny lately
ahhh the rain is so good!
was doing my homework like from i dunno when till 8
feels good(:
okay i think i'm becoming addicted to homework
its the first thing on mind in the morning
and the last when i go to sleep.
LOL.
so everything's fine.
life's good :P
haha. my only wish is that this year would pass faster.
oh and that adi would come back to s'pore faster
i miss her so much!
haha she's like my twin cause we're born two days apart
and she understands me(:
that;s it for now.
byeee,
rekha!

good friday!

2010-04-02T14:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY TO ALL!
haha i feel so high right now(:
thgh i thought i didn't start the day well
actually i did.
was chatting with mum and she highlighted to me things
well there were kinda true but well the truth hurts.
then i went with my brothere and did handbilling(:
tired but really fun! all the diff expressions. haha!
even saw wendy("
then i left like at 12.
saw him on the way.
well haha to your face, i'm no longer who i was
i'm not scared of you
or hurt by your words.
i saw the reaction on your face and i was grinning so wide
your mouth was wide open. well that's too bad.
people change and i did for the better.
suck it all in kay? haha(:
went to cut hair. yay!
i feel so much better!
so suprise when you see me on monday!gonna go to church soon
for miracle night!!!!!
haha so excited. ciao for now.
rekha(:

freakin low-life.

2010-03-26T13:13:00.002+08:00

you can say whatever you want about me.
i don't care.
you can type whatever you want about me.
i don't give two hoots.
you can slander me in anyway you want
so what? life goes on.
i must say that you're very good at pointing fingers but you know what
i don't care.
i've made up my mind
that after this post, i'm gonna wrap everything up and lift it to jesus.
only good memories should remain, aye?
you're now with babydoll.
haha everytime i see it i wanna laugh
cause i remember you telling me how much you hate her.
so who's crawling back?
lastly, what game?
haha i guess you're the only one playing it cause you see
you were so self-absorbed in planning your next move that you never saw me leaving from the back door.
i've got enuff of your bull.
continue playing and be the winner.
haha.
xoxo
rekha
ps:5 months,i can do all things thru christ(:
pps: when one believes in a lie the fruit they produce will be rotten.

suprised?you betcha!

2010-03-23T20:11:00.002+08:00

WOW!
i have to say that the days really flew by!
march hols is like gone....
with it comes a new realization that this is the last march hols
i would be spending in smb sec.
haha wipe tears away
just kidding.
anyways feel super-dee-duper relaxed now(:
weird? dunno don't care.
haha & my tamil 'o' levels is like in a month
and i'm not doing anything much :P
haha well gotta buck up soon.
anyways count down has begun.
i've only got 8 months left with everyone
(well its 7 if you don't count june and 6 if nov is left out)
but i can't wait to get out of school!
can't wait to do so much like:
step down
get out of sss
haha!
but you can't blame me coz the world's so big & i hate being in
this same school alrey.
i've got nothing against the school thgh(:
i wanna meet new people, do new things(:
i guess what you said was right.
i am a free-spirit; can't be bound.
LOL:P
so that's all for now
gooooddd-byyee(:
redlegs

sweet life(:

2010-03-15T11:15:00.002+08:00

thank God its the hols(:
YAY!
well right now i have exactly 4 assignments left!!!!
haha so happy with myself(:
i totally loved this weekend!
why?

SATURDAY: @ THE EDGE!
east vs. west
haha thgh the east won it was totally hilarious to watch!
great sermon by pst Jeremy(:
oh yea & completed my diffentiation tys @ advo
phew! one headache less!
also watched DWL
haha laughed all the way. this is my third time watching ep 5
(thank god for all the visitors and salvations)

SUNDAY: @ VFC SEMBAWANG
cw ministry: was dead tired from sat but kids are my passion
did worship with sis jo and shamah and the kids
haha so much fun(:
they did the chicken dance with the teachers(:
thanks to the ladies who prayed for me cause i'm teaching next week ><
but i can do all things thru christ. AMEN!
went for class, cw meeting!
haha great food(:
rode in shamah's dad's car to cck
thank you God coz it was raining so heavily
and i got a free ride(:
reached and slacked with shamah, sarah, ming ming(: oh and asriel!
slacked till 5plus!
went in, played with LUCAS
he didn't wanna go CW:P
LOL
service. home.sleep.
thgh i had so much fun this week i learnt alot
i guess that's the beauty of life.
right now i have certain issues to settle with family but i know that God will help me thru it all
when i think abt my family i can't help but smile
we're all so different
i wonder how we even became a family?
haha(:
i began to see things in a new light too!
things that happen in school, that one girl with her grudges,
somehow after saturday's service it doesn't bother me any more
i told God, lifted my problems, and my sadness was turned into joy
GOD YOU"RE AMAZING!
i am no longer angry with her cause i know its the cirumstances that force
us to act like we do. but that said, i guess there are some things best let go of right? (:
xoxo,
Rekha
ps: its more than a feeling
this joy in my soul
its not just for day
but its for eternity(:
you turned my darkness into light
and now all i'm gonna do is to love you back
thank you Lord(:

letting go.

2010-03-03T21:38:00.003+08:00

i don't really care.
about who's giving what attitude
i've got enuff of being accused for what i'm not feeling
such classroom politics is not needed.
we're so close to our o's where we separate
yet....
this feeling sucks
i feel like i'm struggling to hold on to too many strings
i know i gotta give some up
but they're all close to my heart.
what's up with you? i don't understand.
whatever lah. i've got enuff. from sec 1 to sec 4.
its brain numbing you know.
i know who you want & its not me.
so?
i want a friendship that's transparent and true
too much to ask for?
i don't think so.
x. rekha

nostalgic.

2010-02-23T18:15:00.004+08:00

You're going on and on saying life's not fair
&
I'm not really listening
BUT
wondering how did we even get here.?
love,
rekha

i want to hear the birds chirp
i wanna see another sunrise
i wanna feel the blood in my veins
i wanna relive all of it
for just one moment

AHHH-DOORREEE!

2010-02-16T18:13:00.006+08:00

fact #1: i LOVE children(:

fact #2: i absolutely adore all my 3, 4 and 5 year olds

fact #3: i'm going bonkers over megan!

megan, who?
haha well see the photo to know why i'm going crazy over her

AHHHHHH!
okay enough rekha.
chill.
ok well i also love her brother cause he is equally adorable

okay well i officially love chinese new year too
cause i got 5 ang pows thgh i am not a chinese
woohooo!
went over to aunty jo's today
had great food
well what do i mean by great food?

*chicken curry!
*tom yam soup!
*bee-hoon
*rice
*fried chicken wings
*FISHBALLS!
*CHOCLOATES (lot's of em)
*tidbits
*a sweet concotion

finally spent some time with my girls as well.

we were like watching all the funniest videos online
laughed alot
thanks GOD for them(:
thanks to aunty susan ,aunty jo, aunty cathy
for their generous ang pows!

oh well.
the fun doesn't need to end today
i plan to have fun in school too!
toodles,
rekha

this ain't gonna stop

2010-02-13T18:49:00.004+08:00

LIVING IN TECHNI-COLOUR(:
buh-bye,
rekha

i'm fine(:

2010-02-09T22:16:00.002+08:00

today was great!
laughed so much
like i've never laughed before.
felt like a primary school-er with no care in the world! (:
thanks to the crazy bunch of friends
and the 7rounds of PE
that's the concoction that makes me go crazy
hope everyday will be a day to laugh like this!
goodbye rainy clouds, hello sunshine
welcome to my world(:

buh-bye,
REKHA!
*yayness! god is awesome always(: even during the rainy clouds. yea and amen.

gone.

2010-02-08T23:07:00.002+08:00

I'm closing this chapter once and for all.
-all the wasted emotions
-all the wasted words
HIATUS.

crazy,love.

2010-02-04T21:40:00.002+08:00

i've learnt something well enough this week.
One can't have the best of both worlds.
i feel really sorry for all that's been happening
but you can't just blame everyone else and not look at yourself, right?

Everyone was fine, you thought.
truth is ,we were not. truth hurts but that's reality.
do you ever wonder why all these kinds of problems only hit you
cause maybe the problem & the answer only lie within YOU.

xoxo
rekha.

bye.

2010-02-03T19:50:00.001+08:00

Will you ever let me walk away?
You keep reminding me of yesterday
You're so stuck on bringing me down
You should know by now that I'm not sticking around
Let it, let it go

Goodbye lies, lame stories
Out my face, out the way,
You manipulate, complicate, don't ignore me
It's a good day, to bid you good day
It's a good day

So say goodbye, don't try hello
It's past the time for you to go

Can't believe, I played your sorry games
It's a good day, to bid you good day
ha.
xoxo
gone.

in beats.

2010-01-28T19:45:00.002+08:00

school. school. school. school.
that's where i've been
tired? DUH.
boring? kinda
enjoyable? triple fun(:
missed wailing X) alot cause she was absent
got food poisoning :(
anyways, tmr is meet the parents.
can't believe it finally @ my last meet the parent
(3 cheers for rekha for making it all this far)
LOL!
anyways, i'm kinda waiting to go back to school
i dunno why.
i think i'm beginning to sound crazy/retarded
but i don't care(:
enjoyed my self with the usual few in school
i don't feel the heat yet(o's)
it might be coming soon but we'll take care of it as it comes yea?
currently stuffing my mouth with biscuits
had a horrible gastric today!
thanks to doc, faq " never eat fruits on an empty stomach"!
ROFL.
that's it for now i think
and hopefully wendy comes back tmr yea?
ciao,
Rekha
the rustling of the blazers
the clicking of the shoes
it will be fab, trust me

woah!

2010-01-21T19:28:00.002+08:00

yellow world(:
lots been happening lately
i've realised that i'm so dog-tired
EVERYDAY
that once i'm done hmk-ing i go to zzz land
LOL!
anyways finally managed to steal some time to blog
GOSH
anyways tmr is cca open house
oh btw its no longer green hub(:
learning hub?
not quite.
its team next heights!
yay!
the activities planned are quite cool BUT
we're stepping down so soon
sucks? i know.
feel like i'm a zombie you know with such a boring routine
but school is great
i feel like going on a really holiday(:
haha crazy, then mdm v will be like
"right NOW nothing else matters because withouts MATHS=NO FUTURE!"
hahah
ohwell.
ciao for now
L-O-V-E,
rekha

ps:No lap top bringing
Or cell phone ringing
You know the feeling
When hits you are singing
I'll kick back and enjoy
the sun on my face
The time of my life baby,
it's time to play

i'm burning up.

2010-01-12T13:00:00.003+08:00

okay this is my first post of 2010.
guess what i already have a fever and therefore this post.
crap i wanna go school cause home is boring but i just don't like the getting up early part. LOL
anyways hope everyone's okay. shld be going back to school IF I AM OKAY tmr(:
ystrday seniors received their o level results
it made me think real deep
like its gonna be ME in a year max.
and am i gonna cry or laugh...
the suspense kills me but i guess life is a suprise; but its up to us to make sure if it is a good or bad one right?
well i'm really proud of SHAMAH SELVAM! you rock girl:)
she was so sad when she received her PSLE resluts cause it wasn't too good
but she rocks cause she did blow me off with her resluts.
but i am not obliged to post it so you can ask her yourself(:
GOD ROCKS; cause i see him help those who stay committed to him even thgh smtimes we fail
later,
Rekha
(i serve a super-STRONG GOD & I'M PROUD OF THIS FACT!)

lalalalalala

2009-12-31T09:43:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO!
well it's new years eve:) again.
oh well.
anyways today still feels like normal
schools gonna start soon
which is not a good thing because that means my o's are nearer:(
but after that..... FUN
:) :) :)
haha anyways this hols seems to go by really quick
mum says its because i've been involved in so many activites
really? hmmm...
been listening to a lot of music lately
BRITT NICOLE just rocks:D
i think i'm going bonkers listening to her over and over and over and over and over again
but she's got a great voice!
personal fav: the lost get found
just pure amazing
:D :D :D
also i think i know what i'm going to be doing in the future
got a glimpse of it and i'm gonna grab a hold of it
its an amazing opportunity
GOD IS AMAZING:)
i'm so excited when i start to think of the future
SO.. i gotta get past this o'level hurdle properly
yup basically that sums up my life for this hols
gona be going for watchnight svc l8 on:)
gonna count down to the new year with church memebers!
yay!
cya all soon in school :{D
L-O-V-E,
rekha.

2009-12-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We'd be held

Happy birthday to me:)
fifteen wishes for the birthday girl, possible?
learnt lot this year but lost a lot.
in everything i do
i'll know that you're with me jesus.

Thnak you jesus for today
this is truly what it means :)

xoxo
Rekha

2009-12-15T22:34:00.002+08:00

hello hello:)
i'm back but just for a short post.
current updates:
1) ADILIA'S GONE (12/12)
2) SIS BECKY'S GOING (16/12)
3) SOON TO BE A 15 YR OLD (17/12)
4)MY BROTHER'S GOT AN ADMIRER
5) MERRY CHRISTMAS (25/12)
6)WATCHNIGHT SERVICE (31/12)

anyways hope you guys are all having a g8 holiday(:
MOST FREQUENTLY ASKED QUESTION:
what do you want for your birthday?

ok folks listen well i've made my mind up.
i want a big (not ginormous) NLT bible :)
yup i'm sure of that.
the one who gets me that ill be loved very much and their reward is waiting in heaven.
hehe xD
okay gtg
goodnight.
xoxoxo,
Rekha
[i miss adilia badly. 3 years please fly:( ]

sorry!!

2009-10-30T15:06:00.040+08:00

here's what i've been up to for the past few weeks!!! all summarized in photos:)

you'll know when its finally over.

2009-10-15T16:42:00.002+08:00

its the end of exams
but yet i feel so down
gloomy?
why?

i think i know why
its because of this term friends.
lets analyze it.
they're supposed to be there when you're happy,
choose to bethere when you're sad,
completely disappear when you're angry
(is it)
or are there supposed to be there
everytime
even if you sad or mad
happy or not
i've been wondering forthepast fewmonths
pondering and thinking on who has always been there for me
sadly its not the people that i thought it would be
but its those who are in the shadowns and always trying to make me smile
seeing me for who i am and not using me.
thank you God for allowing me to have these true friends
cause though they're flawed
they're still humans:)

there will always be people who come and go
in life. though they make you smile for sometime
its not gonna be permanent. never is nor was and never will be.

thank you to all the people who made me shine.
made me smile even when i wanted to just cry
and who taught me the true meaning of friends
xoxo
rekha
loved: besty,anita,reena,kas,rash,meet,vfc members
you guys continue to rock on :D

Life hands us many different things, good and bad. One of the greatest gifts we receive is the love of a good friend.

do you feel it too?

2009-10-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

im back.
was gone. for a really loooonnggg time.
typical.
have started English papers already
anxiously waiting for 15th oct. come soon.

have been trying to think thru things
recently.
many bridges burnt and formed.
i am tired of you acting this way.
just say what you have to & get over it please.
let's not drag this.

& you.
i already told you no.
isn't it clear? stop sms-ing me.
who the heck gave you my no?
its too soon blah-blah
you know it.

i wanna go to a place cut of from everyone else.
sit there and cry my heart out.
don't get me wrong.
i am not sad.
i just am frustrated? tired?
i have no idea
i just want some peace.
i feel like im gna split.
stop pulling me like a stretchie

in my own mind
everythings a blank.
help me Jesus, you're the only one
who understands & for now
just now i really wanna do cry it all out.

xoxo
rekha
*you'll be fine just go and don't ever turn back.

xoxo cherish

2009-09-25T15:06:00.002+08:00

I'm already gone,
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
& i'm sorry.

hello readers
would just like to inform you that i will be
MIA from now till 15th oct
because of exams.

if you are an avid reader of this blog
continue topray that the days fly past
so that i can update again.
lastly wish me luck for the
upcoming exams(:

hiatus
blogger

*like why are you so obsessed? let it go already

bad day

2009-09-19T12:08:00.002+08:00

you know its gonna be a bad day when
1) it starts to rain when you wake up
2) everyone else starts screaming at you for unknown reasons

i don't feel like going thru tday.
it sucks so far.
my dad has already scolded me
mum included too
as always my idiot of a brother has to do smthing to irritate me
uhhh.
i feel so, angered but must control.
but how to. be my guide, Lord.

the second part of the week seems to be a scolding week.
it all started on thurs.
after school faq started screaming @ me.
*shocked,appaled* whatever.
i mean i only told her to go and wa-la
oh well.

friday sucks too you know.
i don't know why but it just sucks.
i wondered if maybe it was because faq wasn't there
but then i pictured her scolding me again so maybenot.
there's so much dumb homework.
i think i'm gonna burst RIGHT NOW.
xoxo
rekha
*Lord help me please. i don't wanna hurt anyone else today.

bored.much?

2009-09-10T11:41:00.002+08:00

hello morning(:
well currently feeling super lazyy
ahh school opens in like 4 days
*sobs*
but whatever.
finished all my hmks and all so what do i do.
any ideas anyone?
hiak.
its gonna be term four soon
i just want this and next year to end like supppeeerrr
FAST!
'o'levels coming soon:(
must jia you and study!
okay don't know what to blog alreay
so syonara!
love,
rekha

just like a hot potato

2009-09-07T12:35:00.002+08:00

"Though our communication wanes at times of absence,
I'm aware of a strength that emanates in the background."

Hello to the world, on this super bright morning!
today is the beginning of the sabbath week(:
YAY!
anyways, life has its ups and downs too so i got my first down to day.
i was just reading blogs and i realized that somethings happening.
is it just me or what?
we used to be so close but now we seem far apart.
there are two voices in my head.
i know you got your new besty and all this year
but did you remember that you didn't even like her on the first day of school?
oh never mind whatever.
you may think i'm jealous but #@!@#@!@#@!!!@$@& (babaric term)
ahh frick.
you don't blog you don't do anything.
i want to help you but you just seem to be pushing me away.
i guess i'll just stop now.
i've got nothing to say.
love,
rekha
my heart feels so heavy and i hate the way you make me feel.

2009-08-26T19:55:00.002+08:00

The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.
Proverbs 18:10

in my own words,
i just want to never forget you.
even if the walls crash on me,
you'll be there. till the end.

i've wondered many a times
about the word called eternity.
i believe that i'll never know until i'm with you.
when i finally walk to the pearly gates,
yes i will know that you've been faithful
and i will be greatful.
thank you Jesus. thank you.
xoxo

hey there.

2009-08-22T12:33:00.002+08:00

L-O everyone!
how's your day been???
haha LOL i bet it must have been great.
anyways haven't blogged for quite some time
as i had lotsa hmk:(
but as always God helped me thru it all:)
YAY!
yesterday has its ups and downs
thgh the downs came from where i expected the ups. get it?
ohwell.
schl was great.
my butt is sore from sitting in mdm V's class for 3periods straight.
OMW.
went for POA. *thankGodfor MdmRashidah*
it was great i understood it unlike emath:(((
but still went on to english.
had vocab test and all but it was fun!
then went for ft.
as usual mr s started scolding us *sian*
but i guess he redeemed himself with the b'day celebs.
all the augu babes celebrated their bdays ystrday!
it ws uber cool lah.
haha poor thing ISABEL :P
susu wanted to smash cake on her face haha
so we tag team and i hold her wait susu smah cake on her face hahahahahaha
i was bursting w/ laughter
ran away coz bel wanted to smash cake on MY face.
*thankstowendykoh*
saved me by just asking me to go home with her! hahaha.
that was the fun part. see unexpected right? sch=fun. weird?

went for net l8er on.
some things happened.
i guess this is a reflection on how i really feel.
i realise that the bond between me and my discipler has been somehow lost.
sadly:(
its been 2 months now and i don't want to hurt anyone.
i only told this to wendy goh.
and as always she was such a great adviser and listener.
i do miss her more now a days
when i talk to my discipler its like something i dread.
i feel like everything's a command.
i told this to God even as we were worshipping ystrday @ net.
last time she used to tell me the problems that are happening in her life or net
and i would try to help her.but now a days....
i know tht the problem is between anita, discipler and c.
but i may help. i was hurt truly.
but as always GOD is great.
he lifted me up and told me its okay if they keep secrets from me. sometimes its for my own good too and maybe in time to come i might know??
i hope to have a good relationship with my discipler but its hard.
i feel like i've lost her and its all my fault.
xoxo,
Rekha
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

today.

2009-08-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

And after all the noise
I never heard a last goodbye
It was silent as a butterfly
There was no parade
No lights flashing
No song to sing
along the way
xoxoxo
Rekha

flipside:)

2009-08-11T19:37:00.008+08:00

hey all,

today was ok.

smiled & laughed

perfectly normal and all + i had FUN!

kinda lazy to type but i've got pics:DD

from my combine science experiment

which happened TDAY!

thanks to msfong!

xoxoxo

Rekha
Am I supposed to put my life on hold

Because you dont know how to act,

and you dont know where your life is going

Am I supposed to be torn apart,broken hearted, in a corner crying bout it, pardon

me,

if i dont show it

that ain't gonna happen yea. <3

do the hoedown(:

2009-08-06T20:14:00.002+08:00

"We Get To 4, 5, 6 And Your Feeling Busted
But It's Not Time To Quit, Practice Makes You Perfect
Pop It, Lock It, Polka-Dot-It
Countrify, Then Hip-Hop it
Put Your Hawk In The Sky, Move Side To Side
Jump To The Left, Stick It, Glide
Zig, Zag 'cross The Floor, Shuffle in Diagonal
When The Drum Hits, Hands On Your Hips
One Foot In, 180 Twist"

happy.yea really & truly.
:))) happy really early national day to all!
anyways, this post is gonna be short.
i am really smiling now a days.
its not because it has ended thgh.
even if it didn't i would be happy
(don't get the wrong idea)
i know that i don't have time left.
to fight or to cry.
only enough to smile.

when we walk past and only say hi,
it hurts. really.when we could have been so much more.
so much much more.
memories are flooding my head.
im blinking back the tears.
all i want is to see you happy.
without seeing my tears.
that's all i want.

xoxo,
Rekha
*if you have already decided in your mind that i will never trust you again then what's the point of even trying to get back?

i see you holding out your hand but i don't see your heart in this.this sucks. really.

crap. a bunch of it.

2009-08-04T21:36:00.001+08:00

whatever i wrote was crap.
erase it from your mind .
please. crap.
dumb me.

it was all an illusion.

2009-08-04T20:37:00.003+08:00

firstly i just wanna say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER(:
he's 17 tday! ain't that cool?woowoo!!!
however the sad part is that he has a super high fever.
i feel so sad:( cannot even celebrate is b'day liaos lah.

moving on anyways. school was great as always
im happy. going to force this smile. i have to
i don't wanna be sad anymore. i don't want to be thinking until my head hurts.
thanks to faqirah and anita and reena and harmeet(:
i love you all to bits. more than you will ever know!
but toady the best was really 2.4 man!
i passed and so did harmeet.
reena was wishing for the re-test to be on some other day.
then mr L was like today is the retest & she started crying!
oh my word.
i felt so sad for her lah cause she run like 3 times alrey
and still fail mah:(
then me and meet say we will run with her.
my muscle was cramp but she's my friend so i ran.
and guess what she passed
and it wasn't a just pass
she was faster than anita! 17min and 40sec.
praise the Lord. it really was a miracle:DD
she was thanking us and all haha:))
had council meeting.
i feel like i am losing touch. i dunno like no more interest to do this.
mr r would kill me if he heard this but i dunno why also lahs?

lastly to end this post. YOU.
i talked to you today.
you seem okay.
i've though about it. really sat and thought about it.
so here's my conclusion.
i was hurt and all by what you did but maybe it was my fault too.
i never listened to you and just jumped to my conclusions.
so just like a war there's always injury.
we can be friends but not best friends anymore.
im sorry but i can't do this.
i need quite a lot of time to heal again.
let's just start out as friends again?
you will be just like all my friends now. on the same level.
you can continue with this guy, i won't say anything.
i am already so sure of the ending but when your heart breaks @ the end,
i will be there to pick your heart up & comfort you but only as a friend.
we'll talk as normal but we can keep secrets from each other.
just like friends not like bestys anymore:(
you can of course have another besty who is much better than me. i just am so dumb.
sorry, but this is all i can give you.
every decison will have a consequence. & this is yours, sadly:((
well that's all i can say. bye.
xoxo
Rekha
*i can't unlove you. i wish i could go back in time and be a better besty to you. sorry i've let you down. i'm so sorry.i am so dumb aren't i?. iam sorry for that too.sorry.

just please stop it.i'm so tired.

2009-08-03T21:52:00.004+08:00

i'm tired.
i really am.
i am sick and tired of crying
ENOUGH.
i read your post. (02.08.09)
i've only got one thing to say
"Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you
by the gazelles and by the does of the field
Do not arouse or awaken love
until it so desires. "
song of songs 2:7
think about it. maybe then you will understand me.
till then though it hurts let's just stay far apart.
xoxo
Rekha
*God my heart is being torn again. but i believe that my rescuer will come for all of my faith i have placed on him. amen.
*to think that you actually thought i was stubborn really hurts me. hais.

the answer.

2009-08-02T14:18:00.002+08:00

hey YOU,
i see that you're hurting.
i want to help you cause you mean so much to me.
its hard, i'm not the soft type.
but i have an answer.
its why i brought you to anita's house on friday.
i wanted you to know that there's someone.
don't you think that no one's been watching you cry.
don't think that no one knows.
don't think that no one sees the pain/doesn't understand.
the answer is Jesus.
sometimes in life we go 360 degrees
before we finally realise the answer was in front of us all the time.
you can overcome this problem
don't let it bring you down.
if he can "let go" so fast what makes you think you can't?
sorry if you feel offended.
but i can tell you one thing that i am so sure of.
when I had no one to turn to
i turned to him
and he never fails.
he WILL understand. i bet my life for this.
clement isn't everything. who is he to mould you into who you are?
you're a great girl and i want you to realise that.
I love you w.
& i don't want you to say no one is there to wipe your tears.
he will wipe them all of and enable you to smile again
IF YOU LET HIM.
xoxo
Rekha

childish much?

2009-07-31T22:53:00.003+08:00

this is getting childish
and old. definitely.
the problem is with the both of us.
you're dumb and i'm dumber
(what the heck am i saying?)
let me re-phrase.
you were dumb. i am dumb now.
get it.
i won't ever be ready to mend this broken bridge
but its a must
so here's my honest opinion.
you've got to earn my trust and friendship back.
i've got to learn and trust again.
i wonder if this friendship is strong enough? maybe not.
but whatever.
of course i would want you to break up NOW.
selfish right? that's too bad.
you would prob lie to me & say that you've broken up
when you haven't.
so,
go on. i guess you got to let your heart really break first before you can understand
why i tried to protect you.
i will never be ready to talk to you so wendy goh is going to talk to you.
that's all i can say to you now.
of course i am DISAPPOINTED in you
but you're not perfect right so fine.
xoxo,
Rekha
"in everything, rejoice"; its a command not a request rekha.

shattered.i've failed you.i am sorry.

2009-07-30T21:46:00.002+08:00

If only you knew
What my heart must do for you
I’m tryna break through
Don’t you think it’s worth the chance?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

what do you tell a person who broke your heart into a million tiny pieces?
-thanks that's so refreshing!
-slap that person?
-avoid contact
-just keep quiet though its tearing you inside?
lets analyze this.
we were bestys? right.
i told you everything. right.
i taught you and loved you even when i couldn't. right.
i tried my best not to fight with you. right.
i protected you though you will never know.right.
i cried for you when you were to weak to even do that. right.
you kept a secret from me. wrong.
you did what i told you not to.wrong.
you chose love over friendship.wrong.
you broke my heart.wrong.
you abused my trust. why?. wrong.
people said i was stupid,
but i took it for you.
they said that i should have someone else who was more stable
but it was you i befriended.
they said it all,
but i chose you.
this bond is breaking.
you're right.
i don't know you anymore.
and that's what i hate.
i've been holding it in, trying not to break.
but i think i am going to.
& i hate this feeling.
i feel so broken.
i feel like a fool, i do.
but this heart must accept again
trust again.
love again
though it has no garentee.
this ground is shaking from all of our mistakes
i draw my strength from you, my Lord.
this broken heart is yours.
i am yours, and you are mine.
help me as i struggle to fight the good fight.
open my eyes Lord.
i love you even though i feel so bad
at least you never fail me. never.
forgive me my friend.
i do not know what to say.
i hope that you heal in time
& i hope that you draw strength from the Lord,
for he is faithful
and he restores.
he loves you just like he does me.
i pray that he be with you
because i really can't and i am so sorry
for being such a failure.
i am so sorry.
but you've changed
& i am sorry for that too.
xoxo,
Rekha
*can we pull through this avalanche? i tried my best but i'm sorry.

just the opposite.

2009-07-28T21:42:00.003+08:00

we were once so strong.
i wonder what happened to it all.
we had it all
but somewhere we went wrong.
we were once so strong.
xoxo.

grateful? yes,definitely!

2009-07-27T21:05:00.003+08:00

THANK GOD FOR WENDY GOH SHU CHENG!

so its been okay(:
school has started
but
its a brand new week!!!
so let's praise god!!

yesterday was great!
finally, i've started running again
this race set before me.
"thank you LORD for choosing me.
i've been so tired latley
but you've said that all those who are weary
can go to you and you WILL give them rest
for your yolk is light(: (:"

so i'm back to my normal bubbly self.
i just had like so many things to handle.
so many people all at the same time
it was so hard
i couldn't take it
i had to break down

cause you said that
there was no need to put a front in front of you
you can see me just as i am
that's why you loved me.
cried my heart out yesterday
and now i feel so much better:D

better go and read paul's letters!
i must remember to chew on his word
haha and love it:P

xoxo
rekha
*i am so thankful & grateful!

insecurities.

2009-07-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

even as night falls,
there seems to be something going on.
my heart isn't at rest and
sleep doesn't greet me either as i lay on my bed.
pitter-patter-pitter-patter-thumpa-thump
goes my heart.
im praying for sweet dreams,
on a beautiful night
it ain't gonna happen right,
ahfrick i knew it.
xoxo
rekha
*you're the perfect lullaby to this nightmare.i think?

well,i guess..

2009-07-25T13:05:00.002+08:00

there's nothing left to say. i'm sorry for the way i let go of everything.but i will survive.
xoxo,
rekha

herewegoalloveragain.

2009-07-24T22:32:00.003+08:00

okay today wasn't great or fab.
it was average.
i got to find out alot of things
*mostly unpleasent.
but that's what they say right, that the truth always hurts.
well here goes.its gonna be a long post but just bear with me.
its been so long that i can't remember when a friend made me cry.
but now i'm on a roll AGAIN.
i never meant it that way.
to hurt you or to make you feel guilty or however you felt.
you're a good friend but i don't understand why you feel this way?
i'm trying to understand but i can't, and i hate it when i'm in this mess.
tonight i hope it rains but looks like it isn't gonna happen
but if it does i want you to look up cause then you'll know that's exactly how i feel right now.
we both have had our fair share of bad friendships,right?
i know you're scared that you might lose another friendship but it ain't gonna happen unless you want it to.
you're a free bird to go with whom you want cause its impossible for me to stop you when i want the same kind of freedom also. to go with who i want. when you cried today i was at a loss for words. i never meant it this way, cause it was a joke, but i guess you mis-interpreted it.ohwell moving on to reason number 2.

a friendship can never be built on lies. yes im talking abt you. its hurting so much that i found out you lied to me. & for the first time. the school has already separated us but this barrier you're putting up between us hurts even more. i want to be there for you but i guess my place is already taken by him, right? even if you deny it i won't believe you cause i saw it with my own two eyes. now you're in love huh? well i hope it goes alright for you.

i wonder why friendships hurt so much. Love should hurt so much more that's why im not brave enough to take that path just yet.or maybe i'll never be but i don't really care. my two closest friends. one who cannot understamd me and the other who doesn't seem to be who she was. God you know how much this hurts, but i'll go through it for these two. amen.
xoxo,
rekha
*special thaks to anita and sham, you guys were the stars that lifted me up above all my insecurities(:

what's wrong:O

2009-07-23T20:15:00.002+08:00

now what's wrong with me?
i really do wonder.
somethings definitely wrong.
i know i shouldn't feel this way.
my temper seems to be coming back.
and i don't want it to:(

i just wanna say sorry to small-terror
i've just been giving her the cold shoulder.
and i don't even know why?!
i am so sorry love if you feel hurt
i never really meant to act this way.
i start to think of everything as a chore
but i don't want to!

i guess i am the one whose going
crazy.
bonkers.
impossible.
mad.
whatever.
i gotta find a way to cure this.
i need to
cause it will destroy me, i know.
xoxo
rekha
*you're still here, i know but i just feel like a hypocrite.iamsosorrygod.

smiling still.

2009-07-20T21:09:00.005+08:00

LETS ALL DO THE HAPPY DANCE
AND SPIN A MERRY-GO-ROUND!
life's okay.
had so much fun at retro night yesterday
sourcing for photos
so tday was good!
yea(:
no hmks leh!
for the first time in my sec 3 life i am so hmk-less
and that's cool
so pretty much that's all.

hey wendy,
i love you girl.
get out of the past
its seems hard
you feel alone
and yea i ttally understand
but if you just wallow in that sadness how
are you gonna ever move on.
it hurts me too to see you this way
and i don't like to see you like this.
move on and i am here to stay
and help you through this.
let me cause i wanna see you happy again?
smile for me but i don't want it to be forced
i want it to be genuine.
sigh i guess sometimes the past is better?
xoxo
rekha
*now do you understand why i said LOVE always feel like a battlefield?

with nothing.

2009-07-17T21:08:00.003+08:00

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

imisshim.
butdidireallyhavefeelingsforhim?
xoxo
rekha

hello you.

2009-07-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

Gift Of The Seagull
by Munda

A lonely seagull flies the winds
Majestic... soaring...gliding wings
A single screech sounds from the sky
Come fly with me... come here and fly

My spirit floats to be a part
I feel the beating of its heart
My soul, one with this bird of sea
Now knows the meaning to fly free

I feel the winds caress my soul
And soar the streams without a goal
My being trembles of delight
A treasure I received tonight

The seagull's flight of soaring high
The gift of what it means to fly
xoxo
rekha
special thanks to netpoets.com

entagled.detangled.entagled.
entrance of the paparazzi
flash of the blinding camera.
bang the trigger is pulled.
someone's on the floor
but i don't care
there's no time to look
the night's still stretched and long
as i begin this run
they wouldn't know who pulled the trigger
or would they...?
*thanks to naysha's compo:D
xoxoxo
rekha

oh,you little lies.

2009-07-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

heyall you readers,
so much has been happening but you know
what?
i don't care.
i realised like i shldn't get my thoughts all wrappd up in such things.
its okay to me if you're angry.
it's okay if you've lied right to my face.
it's okay if you were actually talking about me when i was standing right there.
but.
its not okay that you're not giving me a chance to explain
its not okay that you actually thought i would betray you
its definitely not okay that now you're just acting on impulse.
but i don't care. take it that you've won. i don't want to do this anymore either.

so so i would actually like to thank a few people.
those who've been there and all.
so here goes.

*bestey.
i love you and you're the best. you and i both know that. you can never be replaced no matter what to me. you tusted me without me having to make you believe. it was your birthday and yet i was so selfish by telling you all these stuff. you didn't get mad. instead you gave me a hug and said that you would always be there for me. and lastly you are the one who taught me what a true bestey shld be like so here's for the birthday girl who can never be replaced. happy birthday bestey(:

*wendykoh.
you never judged me. never. and i give my heart to you for that. you're so strong. you've been a good listening ear all these while and i can never forget a girl like you. cause even if i tried to i just can't. when i need to be strong i think of you so you see in a way you've helped me just by being there and just by letting me know that you're listening and for now that's more than i need.thank you so very much.

*faqirah aka small terror
lastly to faqirah. you have been a great buddy. and you too cannot be replaced(: you keep me happy with your jokes/burping/nonsesnsical facial exps. hahaha and that's what i love you for. with you around i can never be sad cause you're so bubbly and you give me space when i need it and you're throughly appreciated.really.

actually i've learnt a lesson from all of this cause i know who my true friends are now. not who i thought sadly but those in the scenes so thanks for everything and you are all loved so much! that's all. feel so much better and yea tomorrow will be better. yes,definitely.

rekha

now i know

2009-07-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

sorry AGAIN for not posting for so long.
please feel free to blame one of these reasons for my not posting
*lazy-ness
*homework (prime suspect)
*hmmm
so yea and im sure you chose the 2 one
hahaha LOL
okay sch's okay.
h1n1 measures still on
kinda cool thgh
you know not assembling in the parade square
but i have a confession
*imissthehall
yea i know what you are thinking...
freak.
hahah but so what? i just miss it!
so anyways i am still lazy but there's some stuff i need to say
became really close to small terror these few days(:
LOVE YOU smallterror!
so anyways she's so nice
xcept for the burping and all
but i still treasure her
muahs
hanging out with reena and anita has been good:D
life's good but tomorrow will be better.
yes,definitely.
nites,
rekha

bizarre much?

2009-07-01T19:49:00.002+08:00

yo:D
im backhaha gee.
oh well the usualLOL
went back to school *dreads*
it was okay
but i can't help but feel that its gonna be worst
ick. hate that sorta feeling but i my guts is telling me so

so let's get past the unhappy stuff
and go to the happier ones(:
haha well laughed alot in sch
*wellitisn'tthatbadthgh*
so yea nd the work is okay
feeling so lazy to even type now
*ifeelsospoilt*

cannot wait for weekends!!!!
that's all for now:P

lovee,
rekha

ending it in style

2009-06-27T15:33:00.002+08:00

yo blogger people.
this week definitely has to be the best out of this whole month
totally fab (:
so where shall i start??

m.o.n.d.a.y
had the combined net thing
cool and awesome
finally realised that i missed the other smb net
haha we played and criti-sized(LOL) this singer
it was great and really enjoyed myself
just as i am sure everyone else did
so "tuki-tuki" that

t.u.e.s.d.a.y
went out to town
with fam :P
was cool. had lunch at junkies:DDD
went to watcha movie
(scroll down to previous post to see which movie)
then we had like dinner and went home feeling like a pig
or in wendy's(goh) term (swine!!)LOL.

w.e.d.n.e.s.d.a.y
did a lot of catching up with cousins.
realised that they got a cat!!!
*AHHHHHH *screams*
ick. anywaysyou know my phobia of animals
apparently immune to dogs :D
but the cat was okay
not the mean-scratch-your-face-out kind of cat hahaha
so had delish dinner courtesy of grandma
geee thanks gran(:

t.h.u.r.s.d.a.y
went out to the library
my secret hotspot
(not so secret anymore i guess?)
got some books so as to read
at night went to mac to have dinner(:
its been a long time since i went to mac
LOL>
ate and chatted with fam
hahah
family-bonding is throughly appreciated!!

f.r.i.d.a.y
guess what?
went out with theee ultimate shopper!!!
eee-ssiirrr-bell
(i always preferred bellbuttocks)haha
so we got off at raffles or was it city hall
hmmmm??
walked to like clarke quay
all part of bel's idea.
but on the way we de-toured a bit!!
haha went into this cemetry/church/place?
haha it was quite cool if you asked me
of course bel was so scared
(kiasuuuuuu xD)
haha then we went up to fort canning park
(foto's are @ bel's blog)
((it would be kinda lame-o if i put the same fotos on my blog so yea))
went for net-outreach.
*we did sushi in da's house!!!!
haha we're both sushi-famous now
*asif
so then had a great time

so ta-da that's all
g3333 gotta run
cya all in term 3
*dreads*
rekha

this girl(:

2009-06-25T13:20:00.002+08:00
weeeellll(:
i am so happy
and i dunno why:D
haha anyways its the last week of hols
*screams*
we don't really have a choice thgh
so gonna go back nxt week
wishing that sec 3 would just end
like super fast lah
so sian alrdy
but then it would bring us closer to our 'O's
which is like quite sad but as usual i
somehow want my 'O's to come
i know its weird and all
but at least when its over and done with i can like relax(:
so that is my latest wish
for time to just fly till its the 'O's
and then R.E.S.T:P
so till then
buh-byeee
rekha

a new day(:

2009-06-24T13:27:00.002+08:00
so yesterday was a blasssstttt:D
went out to dhoby gaught, orchard
haha went out with fam
watched the movie
"Land of the Lost"
it was okay LOL those who watched it would know what i mean
*winks*
so anyways came back at like eleven plusss
so tired but sad that the hols are coming to an end:(
no fair
haiz...

gonna go out soon
so catch all of you later,
gaters:)
^^!!
Rekha

kids galore(:

2009-06-23T12:46:00.017+08:00
zephy kiew (zephaniah)!
yannick chua!

sophie chan!

prudence!

kiara + natasha

jonan!

franny + prudence!

FAITH CHONG!

and this is charis wong!

that april gwee!

that's anita and jonan!

LOL these are the kids i take care of like every 2 sundays and they're adorable enjoy(:

finally i'm back... missed me?

2009-06-22T23:10:00.002+08:00
A really big YO! to all you readers
+
a really big APOLOGY for not bloggin
for soooooo looonnnggg :D

so anyways life has been really good.
managed to finish all my homework:)
(for the first time)
just came back from combined net outing
it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E
we layed like concentration
and tuki tuki(my favourite)
shared so much of fooooooooodddddd
gagagaga no wonder i feel like a pig right now
hmmm... oops sorry wendy (goh) forgot you were the pig *oinks*

before that i had gone to advo (once again?!)
yes i know but it was okay
finally managed to finish one whole paper
it was and anderson one kay!!
haha of course got a few qs wrong
(to err is human:D)
so tomorrow promise to put some photos on my recent activities up
so tirrreeeedddddd *yawns*
sigining off and byeeee,
rekha
ps: to besteeeyyyy have a gr8 trip

reminiscence

2009-05-24T14:09:00.002+08:00
hey all,
i am back
haha i know i have really been very lazy
to blog
anyways went for dinner with churchie
members!!! uber-cool
such a long time sia
so a very funny thing happened:)
anita and me and sham and adi were walking near swensens
ans anita wanted to blow out one of the candles
so she did
and this fat lady who wasn't even sitiing at the table said
"eh don't be so rude lah"!!!
hahazhahahaha
we started laughing like crazy
muahaha
*bigsmileonface*
so then had dinner at long johns
ordered the new cheesy fire combo
yum!
then all of a sudden there waas this scream
a wasp landed on asriel's food (i guess?!)
ewww so disgusting
and their hygiene level was like A
(can you imagine?!)
hahahahaha
so we got out of there and went back home
then we met the fatt-y
again.
haha we started laughing like crazy
then trained to smb
anita,me and sham got off
adi lives in wdlands
so we embaressed her by screaming her name
just as the door was clsoing hahaha
everyone in the train was looking @ her
(sorry loveee,but i just can't help but say "obi-quack")
hahahahaha
so yea that is all
going to evening service soon
*ahhhh screams*
so xcited
peace,
rekha
(wendy goh tag please hahaha )

la quiz

2009-05-13T13:17:00.003+08:00
A-Anita Yee/Anita selvam
B-Bing Hua
C-Christine
D-davina
E-elaine
F-francel
G-Ghafran
H-harish
I-Irhana
J-jin ming
K-Kaleb
L-lorraine
M-ming wei
N-Natasha
O-ou yang
P-premela
Q-queenie?!
R-rebecca/rachel dass
S-shamah
T-Timothy
U-???
V-veronica
W-Wendy Goh/Wendy koh
X-Xing ying
Y-ying ling
Z-Zachary

1) What will you do if W likes S and S likes W back?

[Wendy & Shamah] they are disciple and discipler/ do they even know each other?!

2) Can R and S be together in BGR?

[rachel dass/rebecca & Shamah) they are super best buds/bffs LOL

3) How is L related to you?

[Lorraine] haha she is my net leader, discipler and good chum

4) Does Y know Z?

[Ying ling & Zachary ] definitely

5) If I betrays you will you kill him/her?

[ Irhana ] nah we were not that close though

6) If K steals your boyfriend, what will you do?

[Kaleb] he's a guy! and moreover he's only three. HAHA!

7) What if B tells you he/she have a crush on you?

[Bing Hua] ya and on that day pigs will be flying in the sky

8) Will you and M get into a fight?

[Ming Wei] nahh, he is way older than me

9) Who does F have a crush on?

[Francel] i would love to find out myself

10) If L calls you a bitch what will you do?

[Lorraine]nah she will never say that

11) What's the relationship between you and J?

[Jin Ming] little misses:)

12) Who does Z like?

[Zachary] DAVINA!!??

13) What colour does Y like?

[Ying Ling] I really have no idea

15) Where does F live?

[Francel] Woodlands

16) Did you and H had a fight before?

[ Harish ] That happens everyday cos he is my brother

17) Who is H's best friends?

[Harish] Who cares

18) What can you say about T?

[Timothy] Geeky funny person haha LOL

19) What if W tells you he/she has a crush on you?

[Wendy Goh/wendy Koh] i will be laughing like crazy

20) Tag 10 people to do this quiz :

*anita selvam
*shamah selvam
*lorraine
*harmeet
*faye
*adilia
*rachel sim
*charrisa
*poh
*wendy koh

studies are as such

2009-05-12T16:50:00.002+08:00
OHMYWORD
now i am able to ampathyze(wrong sp)
with those who have studied in sec 3 before me.

i just cannot stand it.
in fact i feel like a Z-O-M-B-I-E
ahhhhh helppppp!!!
anyways hello,
tomorrow's my MYE and look @ what i am
in-dulging in
BLOGG-ING
hahahahahaha

gonna study soon
(like i have a choice)
hopefully there is enouh memory space in this brain
of mine to store all this info.
i am gonna have my emath paper 1
and if i don't get an A i can forget about going to batam
with my councillors!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh *screams*
and and its also history tomorrow
*sian*
two subjects that needs my memory
(oh well i didn't know my memory was so popular
that everyone wants a piece of it)

gotta go
though seriously
i would like to like
S-L-A-C-K
get it slack like the true born slacker aka anitaselvam
*snickers*

gtg *screaming still*
rekha<3

broken free

2009-05-04T21:56:00.002+08:00
hello people:)
finally i am happier
much happier.
sorry if i have been drawn out or anything.
this is a poem
about all those days
when you know...

I'll dance all night
I'll dance the pain away
I'll dance until the morning sun
Graces us with day

I'll dance until I'm numb
Until I don't feel anymore
I'll dance until I'm gone
And don't remember what I'm dancing for

I'll dance until i fall
I'll dance the rest of my life
I'll dance until you return
By the moon's gentle light

I'll dance to the music
Of my shattering heart
I'll dance until it doesn't hurt
As i tear myself apart

But alas these feet dance no more
they have stopped and so has my heart
no more i won't go on
no more...

i think i am finally ok

2009-05-02T12:18:00.002+08:00
hey guys just wanna thank you guys for all the support
thanks guys.
really aprreciate it.
and for those who did not even know it then haha lol now you know
aniways hope all of you are okay
i think preps for MYE
haha
alls good so far
xcept school
but studies are gonna be ike that
so that's all for today.
really super short post but its still counted
<3

suicidal love

2009-04-27T21:14:00.002+08:00
now i really dunno
what's going on.
she's quite. way too quite.
i don't like it
nope not one bit.
this is gonna turn into something into very
very ugly.
but why.
were'nt they fine when they started off.
so now what.
if he screams at you
get away.
leave him.
what's wrong with you?
what's gotten into your brain?
this is so suicidal you know.
one starts the great depression and the other follows
you're gonna go down.
too deep.
you're never gonna come out.
i am telling you.
why don't you trust me.
what the heck is wrong with you
hee-llooo??!!!!
don't you know where this will lead
wake up
my hand is here.
i am reaching out for you.
why you're not holding it.
you're sinking deeper.
i cannot stretch any further.
what can i do.
stop. just stop. please.
rekha

depressed much?

2009-04-18T21:39:00.001+08:00
REKHA'S FAVOURITE WORD OF THE WEEK: PISSED
okay hello aliens.
srsly i think there is somethings wrong with me
why do i even feel like this.
ughhs
it all started on thursday,
i don't even wanna explain..
haiz..
i think i am depressed.
i just don't talk
i don't wanna eat
i just wanna do work, work and more work
and then on friday
ohwhatcanisay
i mean as councillors we shld be open and all
sooooooooo
i just don't get it
if there is some new thing don't you think every ex-com shld be informed,
i mean don't you think it is quite retarded
if you're the only one who knows.
retarded.retarded.damn retarded.
yea i am pissed
i am mad
and i am depressed.
yea that's the word.
please dial IMH for me
even as i sat there on friday at 0610pm
i was in mars
i switched off
i cannot be bothered
i have tried my best to cool down but i am losing it
i am losing my patience
AHHHHHHH
this is so dysfunctional
D-Y-S-F-U-N-C-T-I-O-N-A-L
i am dead.
just bury me now.NOW.
*ohh yea and thanks yusof and jie ying
they tried tohelp but sorry guys
when i just don't feel like reacting this is what happens
its a complicated process
firstly your brain switches off
then your body stops functioning
and next thing you just see people talking but you can't hear
but you don't panick.
you just watch and watch and watch
until your eyes close
and then the rest is history.
went home
i jsut stared at the walls
stare and stare
that's what i did for 1 hour
then i walked and walked all over sembawang
and watched and heard but i never spoke
never.
went home casue my stomach was grumbling.
saw the food, felt like vomitting
just walked back to room
sat on my bed
and stared at the walls again until like 10pm.
everyone went to sleep at 11
i jsut watched the walls
i couldn't sleep
its called insominia.
its a medical condition
i tried to sleep but how do you sleep when there is nothing running through your brain yet you're crying huh?
stared at the walls until 3am
eyes was red already
mum asked me what was wrong at 4am
i couldn't reply.
i just stared some more at my mum
i remember that one question was running through my mind
who is she, why is she talking to me
that was how switched off i was
nothing was going through my mind
took sleeping pills at 5am
slept until 8am and that was it
what else can i say
i am just mad and depressed, badly
but i don't need your pity
just listen.

2009-04-13T21:20:00.001+08:00
To love truly, is to love forever - even though the love be unrequited.

this poem is dedicated to someone
who sparang up on msn
enjoy dear:)

I Learn To Be Strong
by Felicia
Words of wisdom
come to my ears,
Telling me what I know in my heart,
But never wanted to hear.

With the truth finally said
and out in the open for me to plainly see,
I wonder why I can love so deeply
but never had that love returned back to me.

I confessed the feelings
that I held inside for so long,
But with his soft- hearted rejection,
I realize I have to be strong.

With tears that want to flow
from my eyes,
I feel that my heart,
along with my composure, slowly dies.

While this dramatic side is showing through
with my ability to question and reason,
I think I may have found
something in me that I can believe in.

Love hurts . . .
That's what they all say,
But I will love again
when all this pain and sorrow goes away.

So I sit and think of all the things
this situation has cost,
And I realize that nothing
very important has been lost.

Instead, a learning experience
has come from all this.
I've learned that hardly anything
is more important than my happiness.

Love can be cast aside, but memories remain forever.

<3 redlegs:)

just another pathetic brat

2009-04-08T20:44:00.003+08:00

*click to enlarge
well folkies,
hope your day was great with a capital G
but as most of you guys know mine was not.
and it all has to start at the last period of the day
S-P-O-I-L-E-R A-L-E-R-T
that "pop princess" just had to ruin my day lah.
she made the class stay back for an xtra 15 mins
*sorry guys really.
teach dunno what rubbish.
then say what why i wear the tie
no integrity
take back my worksheet
cause got a darn see me
you know seriously i cannot be bothered.
i do her work
hand in everything on time
try my best to be punctual
i try my best to be good but its becasue of brats like her that make me really wonder is it even worth the darn effort.
so of course bells and me were caught in this web of poppy terror
she is so darn irritating
I HATE hEr mAn
to the core cause she sucks that's it.
i mean she is not even worth my tears.
why was i even crying
silly me!
life goes on (special thanks to bellys dp on msn)
and though it would be easier without these kind of brats
i also realise that there would be no action in life
if such spoilers never existed.
* thanks to Mr siva and mr patrick(:haha they made me laugh with their silly notion and english arguments
*and thanks ex-coms who were there today.
brats don't stop me,
redlegs(:

you're never forgotten

2009-04-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

hello aliens(:
hope ye all had a great day(:
dunno what to post leh
was browsing through some old photos
saw this one photo
i miss her lah
suddenly reminiscened about last year.
when it was so happy
no complications.
i remember that me and besteyy
that we used to crap alot with wendy and the girl on the photo
she was so funny lah
she and her besteyy so crappy.
i miss them both. Alot
this yr the girl in the photo is in another class
and her bestey is lost in herself.
i miss them both terribly
but what can i say
all's fair in love, war and friendship
<3 rekhA

my biggest mistake.

2009-04-04T22:43:00.002+08:00
my biggest mistake.
an essay by shana(:

the biggest mistake i have ever done was to never really tell you how i feel.
i really thought through this
you've been the only thing on mind
its not right, infact its insane
but i can't help it.

if i had told you what would i have lost?
maybe my sanity?
or maybe embarresment?
i dunno, like seriously.
but now i realise that i have lost you becasue i never told you
never told you what all this was about
darn my stupidity.
i should have known it would lead to this.
i miss you okay
like crazy
but i've lost you
i let go of you even before i caught you

take care
for time alone will tell if i get to meet you again
and if i did
would history repeat itself?
would i leave you like how you left me.
i hope not. i really don't.

i love you,
yes i do.

-the end-
*thanks shana for sharing(: loveee

2009-03-31T20:53:00.001+08:00
To You From Me
by Karin Solum

The hardest part of being a friend
is knowing when you need it a little
and when you need it a lot.

So just in case you're in need
of a friendly "hi" today,
I wanted to let you know I'm here still caring,
still thinking about you,
and still being your friend.

today i thought of you
i thought of those times when you were still around
times when just the sight of you seemed to cheer me up
now you're gone
and i heard you're coming back
i imssed you
but i wonder
is it really for the best
if you were to ever come back?

<3 rekhA

something special

2009-03-28T15:31:00.000+08:00
this is for YOU
Love is letting go,
even when you dont want to.
Love is letting her be happy
even when it doesnt involve you.
Love is being okay with just being friends
Love is being able to say goodbye
because you know its the best thing for her
Love is letting go

A break up is like a broken mirror.
It is better to leave it broken
than hurt yourself trying to fix it.

I can't escape the thought of you.
Even in my dreams you are there.
It's not fair how your gone,
and how you're moving on so fast,
while I am still living in the past.

Breaking up is not a stupid thing;
instead it makes you a better person
and realize your mistakes.

Letting go of someone dear to you is hard,
but holding on to someone who doesn't
even feel the same is much harder.
Giving up doesn't mean you are weak!
It only means that you are strong enough to let go!

Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare
after having the best dream.

When you love him - truly love him,
how are you supposed to get over him?
I've tried everything possible ...

ps. you've had a doubt and i have your answer
<3 rekha

what can i say?

2009-03-27T18:52:00.002+08:00
LOL
today was cool
actually nthing much you know
went to school as usual and yeasss
saw dada crap with her in the morning
then go for class...
i was sorta looking forward to a maths
cause mdm vani so nice to me ystrday
LOL
i am beginning to think she is quite nice(:
aniwayss...
moving on to IH
lol
i think mr s just dislikes me
i was giving the right ans but he said it was a stupid contribution
i really don't understand why all the teachers call me stupid?
LOL
i can't be bothered.
went for super boring chem.
LOL
seriously she is moving on while i don't seem to be understanding
ah heck(:
then go for english.
ok lahs
hui zhu so funny lah
LOL
he thought me a dn vani laughing at him
then he kept on staring at him...
LOL
then go for council
ok ok lah
haha wendy got picked for the last activity
then she never do anyhting
that was just so retarded
aniways currently talking to the retarded one.aka. wendy
LOL
i am definitely convinced that she is a good actress
wow
and i suggested that she join my drama troupe
which consists of me and the martian
then she said we would be the drones of the queen isabel
HAHAHA
i miss chatting with her like that
so i thnak God for that
i love her so much
ILY WENDY
so yea this is sbt it
gotta go for net outreach
lublublub,
redlegs<3
ps: here is something me vani and rahayu created.
heleft heleft heleft right there
heleft heleft heleft me!
you know ncc and npcc always say right
left, right, left right left

is this me or what ?!

2009-03-25T21:52:00.002+08:00
life has been hectic.
so caught up with the walks of life man.
i wanna slow down but we gotta move on
that's the whole dumb point.
but of course YOU have always been there for me.
thank you LORD
for your grace and mercy.
even though sometimes i just get very little sleep
you always charge me up and make me sooo hyper:)
thank you so very much:D
we're gonna have net outreach on friday
its like a christian party.
so xcited yay!!
anyways @ school
doing okay xcept for darn a math...
haizzzz
but i gotta count on advo man
i seriously am so lost with alpha and beta
and ughhhh she's gonna finish it soon then howwwsss???
lalaalalalalaaas
oh yeas and today sat for some stupid test..
LOL
only me and harmeet cannot log in
then got the technician help
did the quiz.
gave up at graphs and one dumb fungi question and wala
a perfect score of 28/33
xD its perfect to me okay?
anyways yea that's about it
LOL
xoxo

its inexplainable...

2009-03-19T21:32:00.002+08:00
GOD IS SO GREAT
yes he is.
i've been going through so much and have been constantly praying for a break through and ta-da it came at the last moment when i thought everything was over xD
so the word is true
"draw close to me and i will draw close to you" from the book of judges
went out with the martian today
thank God for his patience while i taught her.
but so sad wendy <3 cannot join:(
anyways i managed to persuade her into doing her homework rather then slacking like all born humans do and BTW if you do not slack you're not human (jk)
so i wrote a letter to HER
told HER how i felt
we will see what happens next
but i know that i will run this race ,arked out before me because the Lord is with me.
"your love is extravagent,
your friendship is intimate"
<3 redleggs

still thinking

2009-03-17T20:27:00.002+08:00
heyall
recently i've been using my brains alot.
how?
i've been thinking
thinking hard.thinking for a solution.
but the thing is that i have no answer to this problem.
no matter how much i think i guess it will just remain this way
after 15 years sometimes we just get used to it.
but somehow i cannot get it out of my brain.
why?
i don't seem to get any answers.
i turn to you
and cry out
only silence greets me
but i know you see and you hear
the struggle that i've been going through
the answer is on its way
just give me the patience
and let me focus on you.
rekhA

somewhere in between

2009-03-13T19:16:00.002+08:00
so today was the last day of school.
i was sad okay.
i never wanted the last day to be like this.
but well i guess evrything happens for a reason aye?
she come apologise during recess and yeaa...
but i was like hmmmm.... i dunno what to say!
hahaha
okay then oh yeayea thanks for steady
buy for me tissue cause she got no tissue when i started to break down:)
thanks yeas.
i just guess i have got too much to handle these past few days
love all of you who tried to cheer me up.
so how do i feel now?
i serioulsy dunno. i guess i need time. i guess i need space.
this is how it is. sorry uhhs.
now i just feel like i'm drifting i'm just numb.
its not your fault. you did your part to make me better. but its me.
i guess.
love
rekhA

you're the kite i am letting go of

2009-03-12T21:08:00.003+08:00

to a little martian,
for the past few days
i've been feeling this change.
We're going far apart
and the distance is too far.
why you actinglike that?
why you talking like that?
i would so love to ask you
but i don't have the guts.
you're my dearest friend after all,
while some say i should just let you fall.
now i'm torn apart
byt he way you're treating me.
one moment you're sweet
and the next you're sour.
i can't take this anymore
please just stop it.
you're unreasonable,you just don't care
i am getting hurt everytime i try to help.
why don't you tell me with i should do with you
should i leave you
should i stick with you?
rekhA

im happy are you?

2009-03-10T21:17:00.003+08:00
hey freaks
okay sorry sorry
anyway how were your days
hope you had fun.
i had lots of fun today but i am just too lazy to write leh.
i realise i get happier each day as its nearer to school holidays!!!
:) :) :)
btw: sympathizing with bells for that shout out at poa
lazy bum's signing off,
redlegs(:

dazes zzz...

2009-03-09T21:59:00.002+08:00
heyall
what's up and how is your life.
idon'treallycare
so anyway moving on
man was quite bad
please note that i used the word WAS
like last night i came back from chirch at like 9plus.
ate and took my bath and started to do my homeworks
did and slogged, slogged and did arghhh
and still cannot finish until 12 plus.
so sian man.
then go do ask nlearn a math
OHMYWORD
i died doing that
it was like 1 am
i was just staring at the screen cause i like dunno how to do 7 questions
i was so tired
my eyes were starting to burn
i couldn't take it so i started crying
yea lame right but that is what always hapens when my brain decides to switch off.
thank god for mummy <3
she come and ask me and comforted me
ILY mummy(:
then she say just go and sleep and it was like 230 am
slept for like 4hrs only!!!
woke up went to school
by god's grace no scolding from mdm vani(:
oh yeaaaa and i got a perfect score of like 65 for both my a and e maths
yea its not very high
a bit disappointed with my emath but very happy with my a math cause i thought i was gonna fail.
walked home with wendy
theend.
redlegs(:

don't let this be the end

2009-03-07T22:53:00.004+08:00

heya freaks and martians,
well i just gotta admit that the last few days were just fun. l will let the photos do the talking enjoy! babes,
redlegs(:

net outreach

2009-02-28T21:23:00.002+08:00

hey yall lemme tell you 'boput how i spent friday net.
as usual we had net and i so love anita the girl you see in the picture.
she brought pizza over and we had great laughs burning it and all.
then lorraine my net leader joined us and she was pissed about some people. but who cares.
wait for dexter and davina and charrisa it was great
ILY you guysssss.
love,
rekhA

moving through my veins

2009-02-26T19:53:00.003+08:00

hey all.
today was sucky.
sucky sucky sucky day.
i totally hated hated hated hated today.
all day long tests.
though i really do love physics and english but still tests
eck!
then to sum it all up darn emaths.
stupid test.
ahhh!!! i knew how to do its just the darn time time TIME
and now i feel so frustrated.
DARN.
and the topping on the nice cake.
i forgot to do the irritating homework.
how could it be
of course it can cause i didn't even write it down in my stupid handbook
ohwellwhotheheckcares.
go for some boring talk and isabel and i were just zoning out. both just shut up.
started to laugh and couldn't stop.
missed wendy koh but she was with __________.
i am really starting to miss her man even though we are in the same class.
we're going further i can feel it. but she needs the space so its okay.
but i do love her lots kays.
crapped with isabel turns out we were both frustrated about the same thing.
that's all.
oh yea. best thing was that i had to stay back for a darn tamil test.
so i started and ended the day with tests.
my brain exhausted.
love,
rekhA

lets pronounce P-O-A (poh-aaaahhh)

2009-02-24T20:01:00.002+08:00
hey folks how was your day?
mine was great superb fantabulous.
went to school as usual and went for gate duty and all.
did my tamil homework even though i do not like it.
then go for chem
i finally understood what the teacher was talking about.
we did this superb lab ex-periment and my fab partner produced this crystal thing at the end of the ex-periment.
HAHA!
then i had amaths and well i didn't really understand
fumbling here and mumbling there i tried kaysss?
but suprisingly i was able to finish all my corrections.
oh yea another breaking news
THE TOAD IS B_A_C_K
gagagagagaga
then went for recess.
spoke to besteeeeyyyy
did not realise that i missed her soooo muchhhhhhhh
ILY steady all the best for your piano exams!!!
and also cheer up babe so what if she treats you like that i will always love you no matter what.
and isabel who wasted money by throwing her food away.tsktsktsk!!
then we had 2 periods of mother tongue.
fine it was good any ways cause i had fun okay.
then we had english so sad we did not get back our test
i am so eager but i gotta wait
(patience rekha!)
also very fun descriptive nonsense.
what a zorbug/garbuk day it was!
(see it does not make any sense.)
then woooohoooooooooooo
2 free periods of POA
i love isabel and harmeet and reena man you guys rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so lets prononuce it again POA (pohhhhh-ahhhhhh)
hahaha.
after school rain like cRazy.
ohbutwhocares!
walked home with wendy.
kept on craping cause she was down and saltwater was getting into her eyes.
*hey wu girl. cheer up kays. its all gonna be okay. just believe in yourself. you still got me and bells. and don't let salt water get into your eyes. its just not worth it. and you know its true. ILYSM!!!!!!!
crapper,
rekhA

just for once.

2009-02-21T14:32:00.002+08:00

yesterday was really cool
i am too lazy too write lah so go read wendy blog got details one.
i just flung that stupid 400m race
oh,heck.

hey besteyy,
i know we are in diff classes but
i can't help but to feel we've parted
there is this distance
that i can't close.
i am sad when you're happy
you're low when i'm high
god this is so hard
we seem like opposites but you must know
i still love you to bits

When you feel your heart's guarded
And you see the break started
When the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me
When your tears have dried from cryin'
And the world has turned to silent
When the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

i'll try to mend your heart
if you let me kays
imrighthere,
rekhA

blown in the wind.

2009-02-16T22:12:00.002+08:00
Flowers
by H. Barnes

It may not be the same,
But some things never change.
I feel it and I trust it,
I still believe in forever
Because that's what my heart knows.

Memories are the dew drops on our petals
That re-open the buds that have closed.
Flowers wilt as seasons change,
Though they grow a little more with rain.

The sun will shine when in need,
And left behind, a precious seed.

its for you.
though we don't talk it doesn't mean i don't miss you.
Heck i do but you've chosen this path and i have mine.
i will be right beside you even when you cannot hear my voice.
follow your heart and you know i will support you whatever it may be.
always,
rekha

its not just another day.

2009-02-14T23:30:00.002+08:00
hey guys,
happy valentine's day to all who have someone to celebrate it with and as for those like me hope you had fun with your friends:)
today my day was really weird.
woke up at like 9 plus.
played the keyboard then my brother kept on teasing me saying what that i will get a phone call from a guy and some rubbish.
of course that never happened.
then go do homework and stuffs
then watch tv and continue with homework.
then go eat lunch
and continued with homework
realised that it was like 4.40
so got changed and rushed and train-ed to yishun.
saw asriel on the way and talked and stuffs then go there and then watched the valentine's day game and then started church service.
the service was ultra cool
it was called the cost of confusion, to view it got to
www.theedge.org.sg
then after church went to dinner with davina and darryl
I LOVE YOU GUYS LAH >.<
so aniways had fun at ljs with those two goofy guys
saw reena there
haha
then go home then my maid was like i got something to tell you then i was like
what what happened?

. then she was like the opposite blk the father of one of my primary school classmate's dad died.
i knew his sister quite well.
i was ultra shocked
then she say the girl like kept on crying and to my horror i also started to cry not because i knew the father or anythink but its just that another soul was lost and all and i strongly believe that it was not my tears but the pain that GOD goes through when he loses one soul.
So lets face it okay.
ya the truth isn't so sweet but jesus christ is the only way to heaven.
we can try to delude ourselves by saying that if we do good wroks we can go to heaven but no. and that is not true.
the truth is so clear so lets just stop deluding ourselves.
there is only one true God and that is JESUS CHRIST.
why don't you try him out today and if it doesn't work you are free to leave cause you will never know what you are missing out on unless you try it
NO STRINGS ATTACHED.
shell-shocked,
rekhA

boy what a day it has been!

2009-02-05T22:02:00.002+08:00
well let me tell you about my super day!!!
as you can see i am very happy today lehsss (:
aniways i went to school and all and then had physics
ahhh!!! i forgot to do the homework then teacher ask me sit outside and finish the work.
oh but WHO CARES?!
cause after that had 3 straight free periods. isn't that cool or what?! (:
got mother tongue then we indians must go library so go lorh then found out the door was locked i mean the library is not even open!!!
but then i push the other door and then the library open leh(:
go in on the light and RANSACK xD
then librarian come then we all act very goody goody.
sat with andrea and talk about signature and frogery (gagaga)
then bell ring so sian to go fro english but still go lor.
so fun man english.
sat next to wendy and bin li again with bells infront of me!!!
then really play crazy then do worksheet
then hor just beofre lesson finish bells go crazy then start to fight with me
then i dunno what to do mah so i use my book defend ended up i injured her more with my random whacks.
so fun :D
then go for recess and saw besteeeyyyyy:)
go but skirt haha then lend christy thumb drive.
she's so cool:)
poor bestey hope your tailbone heals kay ILY
then go back to emaths. dreads!!!
i have been promoted to the front in front of mdm vani
thanks to anita im okay she help me leh thaks leh ANITA YEE TING YIN
then go for cld go sit with mdm pang's daughter aka wendy
so funny keep oncraking jokes with elah and nurul.
then go lunch with isabel and harmeet
THEY ROCK MAN!!
we made a whole disaster of the mango sunrise ice kachang.
then met EOS(:
go buy mac with her then go to her lovely house.
isabel love the smell of eos house haha?!
then go to my house.
then we ahd a private chat about some stufffffff
I LOVE YOU GUYS LAHHHHHHH x}
then go for tamil so sian
aniways this was how my day was
and i am still so high
:D :D :D
lots of high-ness,
rekhA

perfect words

2009-02-03T21:58:00.000+08:00
Forever Far
by Kerry

You're always in my heart,
Always on my mind,
No matter how deep the water,
You, I always find.
My memories are darkening,
You're getting more unclear,
I've fallen into a tunnel,
But I am not to fear.
Very soon we'll be as one,
Together as we once had been,
Filling our memory boxes,
For another year of being unseen.

i just feel so sad today.
so distant from everyone else.
i seem to be disconnected from me.
so don't mind me.
rekhA

sometimes words fail too..

2009-01-31T22:37:00.002+08:00
sometimes when you want someone to understand something you are indirectly trying to say, why is it that they don't get it? why is it so hard to understand? i just don't wanna say things that hurt YOU but i really need you to know that what i am typing is for YOU. i have always wondered about the phrase what if words just fail you? Its such a moment as this that words utterly fail me. these feelings cannot be expressed. cause even i don't know what they are. but YOU out there just try to understand. i do believe in you and all but sometimes you just make it so darn hard you know. im sorry but i don't have another way to voice these feelings that are choking me up.

You see yourself in the mirror of the temporary,
And you think that your worth is something to be achieved.
When your value really is a question of identity,
Has it ever crossed your mind: who you are to Me?

You're the precious child that I created.
Who you are to Me.
Bought with a price; you're My beloved.
Who you are to Me.
Open your eyes and I'll show you how to see what I see.
If you would just believe that you are who you are to Me.

Defusing the bomb instilled within the minds of children,
You're the life inside a body that refuses to believe.
A revelation of My love is waiting just to be received.
Won't you let Me show you who you are to Me?

You're the precious child that I created.
Who you are to Me.
Bought with a price; you're My beloved.
Who you are to Me.
Open your eyes and I'll show you how to see what I see.
If you would just believe that you are who you are to Me.

And I love you so much that I crossed the Great Divide,
And I love you so much that I sent My only Son to die.
And there's no one who could ever take your place in My heart.
I want you to know that I love you right where you are.

You're the precious child that I created.
Who you are to Me.
Bought with a price; you're My beloved.
Who you are to Me.
Open your eyes and I'll show you how to see what I see.
If you would just believe that you are who you are to Me.

Who you are to Me.

Who you are to Me.
*lord thank you for this day and i pray that you heal and make a heart that is pure and clean.
amen.
rekhA

you. yes. you.

2009-01-30T23:03:00.002+08:00
hey YOU
what's happening to you?
why you doing this to me? why you treating me this way?
guess what i am sick of this. i am not good at consoling and i am no angel. so stop being gloomy. fight this thing off. i hate this part. seriously its so screwed up. i don't know if you're sad or happy. i don't know if you're angry or just plain stupid. wake up.this isn't some drama this is your life.why can't you see how dumb this is. you used to laugh with me at all the storms now looks like you're part of the storm. ilove you. so get yourself back together. stop crying over what's gone.

the thing thay called LOVE

2009-01-30T22:49:00.003+08:00
i have dedicated this entire post to what i think about the word "love".
what is the true meaning of love?
why do peole just change 360 degrees when they're in love?
is it so hard to let go?
you know seriously, it starts to get up to my nerves sometimes.
cause i just don't freaking understand.
when she's with someone she looks so happy when she's not she's sad and she crys and makes promises that would only be broken the very next second the guy starts talking to her.
its just SUPER ridiculous
you know that if you're in a relationship
a) you break up
b) you guys are okay and are constant
c) both of you are cheating on each other
d) you marry each other (which seriously does not happen to people my age)
and most of the time lets face it the answer is A
so you know that you're gonna cry
that things would never be the same
that you would be left with a broken heart
that you might just become sworn enemies with each other
see you know the consequences so why do we still fall in love?
i seriously think this kind of love is twisted with a capital T
but there is another love.
love that's stronger. that covers sin. that takes the weight of the world.
love that would give a life up for you. an unconditional love. that's what it is. but humans would never be able to give that.casue it ony comes from one person. JESUS CHRIST. and i am serious.
so seriously YOU out there stop crying and being happy on the next day.
i can't take it. its hard on me too. you've got the mood swings and all. you're so different. and i hate it okay. i miss you. just be the chatterbox you again.

going deep(:

2009-01-28T20:23:00.002+08:00
so yea i haven't had the time to post
OHCUTTHECRAP!!
i am just too lazy to blog
boohooo the blog sicknesss :(
so any way i have decided to blog yea:D
life has been okay
god has definitely challenged me this whole week plus last week
thus i have decided to start a net(:
no details on that cause its totally private.
i got the members and this whole week is really a challenge as its hard to get them all come together.
but i know god will help me and the devil is really trying to stop me by making one of them turn against me but i will not say who it is but i still love that person cause i know how it feels like to be so confused and think that you're right.
so yea that's all and haha today was cool esp el class wendy koh wei ling ILY kaysss(:
and belly wong toooo!!!
i guess and davina-chan :D
that's it guys,
rekhA

weals and woes

2009-01-15T22:05:00.003+08:00
hey all
so sorry for not posting for such a super duper long time(:
anyways like since yesterday i have been very busy with my juniours and yadayada
i don't wanna go into the details of what really happened
but the end result is that i am pissed
so yea since this is a public blog no details so sorry(:
BUT
I really really really really really love wendy koh wei ling and isabel wong aka bells/ bell buttocks hehe
you guys are the best lahsss
let of my frustrtions to them yea!!!
finally and thanks bells for your sweet treat
love you guys
oh well this is the shortest post ever but so sorry gotta go get some zzz so that i can complete the last day tomorrow
love,
rekhA

pissed and mad can this day get any better?

2009-01-08T15:16:00.002+08:00
well woke up at like 6.20 and went to get ready for school. left my house @ exactly 7. walk sloely to school cause was feeling a bit sick... then once i arrived i was lie walking and isabel came up and she was like "OH MY GOSH REKHA YOU ARE HERE, DO FLAG WITH ME, I WAS SO SCARED THAT YOU WOULD NOT COME"
*haha belly i came to your rescue
aniways so scared lah to do flag but no choice must do mah but then go toilet for like 15minutes cause was feeling sick
*what the heck is wrong with me
then after that go do flag and rachel come help me:)
*thanks rache love ya
**at least that's one thing to be thankful about for today
then when we were standing at attention the string got tangeled up with the flag and i though that was the end of me. i was going to die and fast!!
then i was so scared then rachel was telling me not to worry(facial expression)
then the flag went higher and higher and the string was getting so messed and i almost almost cried and i remeber i was praying so hard that nothing would happen and that the string would miraculously fall and everything would be ok and it really happened!!
the string fell and everything was okay
OH MY WORD
that was definitely a miracle!!
so after that go for lessons
yadayadayadayada
then finally recess:)
went so eager to meet besteyy
i don't know why but when i saw her i almost fell like she and i were just friends.
can you imagine that. what are utterly horrible thought!!
but i guess that is what is really happening to us. we're drifting off okay its the truth and i don't know what to do abt that.
for the first time ever i felt so alone in that school of i don't know how many people...
so yea then do duty go for stinking e maths
seriously i just don't understand why there is a need to go so fast and why everything must be quiz. i don't understand why i must be so terrified and @ the same time feel pisse. i didn't understand anything i am serious and you know what i on't know how i ma supposed to hand up that nonsense piece of homework and everytime i want to copy something she will say "pens down you can copy later" and that just so friggin pisses me off.
ughh!!! i don't think i can take this kind of toture anymore. i just felt like standing up and runniong out of that stupid stuffy humid classroom.
GGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!
so whatever then went for cld and tada i just kept on sleeping through it cause i was feeling so nauseous and everytime i put my head down he would start asking "rekha are you okay or not?" i just don't understand why people just can't leave me alone always asking me this and that i've really had enough of it
so went straight home after that so yea that's basically it
gotta go for tamil later on at 5 haizzzz... i am so worn out already but what can i say?
signing off,
rekhA

a fresh start.

2009-01-03T22:26:00.002+08:00
yea well hello everybody(:
hope you're having a great weekend
so well lets see i went to school on monday haha
and got to know my teachers and yadayada
the guys in long pants looked so different haha so mature
*but i guess deep down they're still the same
so yea then went back home so sian that school started
no more holidays
and i am like sec 3 the hardest year so calles cause you learn a lot of things that you must apply in your "o"s
i really don't know how i am going to do this year
but god will be there to help me i just know it and that's why i love him so:)
my only fear is my besteyy.
cause she is like in another class and just feel that we might lose touch or something cause we will not be seeing much of each other anymore that's why i am praying so hard that she would be in my A maths class.
i just cannot imagine to lose touch with besteyy cause like she is the only one who knows my temper me myself and its like she has become so close to me that now i am scared that we would both drift away..
but besteyy reasures me everyday saying that if we both believe that this friendship will work out than it really will!!
i wish i had her confidence :x
i will trust in you lord so that you will help me through this tough year. i am counting on i aM counTING on GOD
with love,
rekhA

could it be the last day of the year?

2008-12-31T13:47:00.002+08:00
oh well i guess you just have to face it
IT IS THE LAST DAY OF THE YEAR
i know students its hard cause we have to go back to school and i deeply sympathize and understand with you cause i am a student too. okay. LOL.
so aniways all that was just crap
urghh!! why does school have to start on a Friday
i don't see why we can't be normal people living normal lives and start school on monday
heck the calender!!
okay i guess you still have to start school one day even if it is on the second fifth or twelth
dumbaggumballjugag!!
sorry for those weird notions
aniways i am so darn bored
fine i know i haven't finish my homework but seriously really what the heck were the teachers thinking man
highlighting 2 incredibly long chapters of social studies and history
rawr!!
i am not gonna finish haha
actuall i already finish like ss chapter 3 and history 2.1 but really there is just not enough time to do the other two
does anybody understand this
this is a plea for justice in school
oh man i think boredom has taken over
why are the words above so drama-key....???
could it be because i have just lost my sanity and devoted myself to being insane for the rest of my life??
i hope so hahahhaahaha
madgirl signs off,
rekhA

merry late xmas

2008-12-27T14:36:00.002+08:00
hey guys
merry late xmas to all!!!
haha i think ijust had the best xmas like ever
that is just soooo soool
thanks for all the presents guys i love you guys sooo much(:
the true meaning of christas is christ's birthday so happy birthday to God!!
aniways hope your christmases went well
oooo yea another super great news!!!!! DAVINA CALLED ME like yesterday
isn't that like uber-cool!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
she called me and like i could only talk to her for like a minute cos its super expensive from taiwan to singapore but still wooohooooo!!!
I love you besteyyy
and really missing you!!!!
come back soon hors:D
so today went to curch for like work day and it was so fun cleaning the stuff and teophilus was like shooting us down with his toy gun hahaha and teophania
just love 'em both hahaha
then went home. then watch tv eat sambal chicken by my aunty YEA!!!
and here i am typing my heart out(not really:x)
and soon i have to go to church.. hahahaha yea!!
okay guys
gtg
buy
with nonsense,
rekhA
*wendy koh i am having your xmas gift come and collect asap:)

can you miss a person more than this??

2008-12-23T20:45:00.002+08:00
today i was woken up by besteyy
she was at the airport lorhs:(
she called me to give me my morning wake up call
then she said goodbye and stuffs like that..
i felt like crying :( can you imagine first thing in the morning and you already feel like crying.. its just weird..
so anyways i tried not to cry so hard and i squeezed my eyes shut so that i wouldn't start crying cause if i started i knew she would cry too..
i had to be strong..
then she said she would miss me and stuffs and i sooo thought that i would like just cry but i like did not.. thank GOD
so then went to meet organizing com for sec 1 orientation and bought my books..
and i was thinking OH MY WORD they are so heavy, how am i ever going to carry them home by myself and i witnessed a MIRICALE the whole organizing com went home with me and help me carry the books and then we wnet to mac for breakfast
but the whole point here is that MIRICALES DO EXIST CAUSE GOD CREATES THEM so then did project and then my brother told me to take his wallet from anita then met shammah she passed me the wallet. THEN THE STUPID THING happened.GRR!!! thanks wendy koh for being there reallyyyy(: really appreciate it:D
then went for net bbq. tomorrow going out shopping with discipler lorraine neo
hehe
that's all
good bye folkies
*i still am going to miss you besteyy,just come back safe and soon

besteyy is going...

2008-12-22T21:39:00.002+08:00

besteeyyy is going to taiwan tomorrow morning
sorry uhs bestey i can't see you of
sorry hor
wish you all the best be safe and come back sooon
i will miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you
i miss you take care
aww well guys too sadd too write
bye:(

twilight frenzy

2008-12-21T13:52:00.009+08:00

went to watch the long awaited twilight with besteyyyy on friday. some scenes from the movie are above so enjoy (: